So Long, Goodbye...

You told me to fight for you & i did. You never fought for me.
I thought i knew you, but i guess it's easier to see what we want until we are looking for the truth. I may not always know what i'm doing but i'll try to make things better and when i make a mistake, i'll face it.
I would've given you the world and welcomed you with open arms but you failed the test. And for that, you get nothing. For that, you are nothing.
I thought maybe we meant more to each other. I guess i was wrong.
When i needed you to stand by me, you blew me off, so i don't need you anymore.
I'm sorry but you don't know anything about my pain.
I'm not fragile because i'm a girl. I'm fragile because i'm human.
I'm letting go of the anger. And i'm letting go of you.
I can't wait around forever. Maybe, it's time to move on.
I want to believe in it all again. In music and art, faith and love, and i want to believe that i have made the right choices and that i am on the right path and that there is still time to fix the mistakes i have made. And i guess i want hope.
Let's face it. It's been a long time and we don't really know each other anymore.
You never gave me a real reason, you just walked away.

No Boundaries

There is no such thing as conditional love. Love is either unconditional or it's no love. You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior or circumstances. But love accepts no boundaries. So never say 'I love you because', for love has no cause, love comes from God.

Mystery

That nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be. You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future. God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know.

Do It Anyway

People are often unreasonable,

illogical and self-centered;

Forgive them anyway.





If you are kind,

people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.





If you are successful,

you will win some false friends and true enemies;

Succeed anyway.





If you are honest and frank,

people may cheat you;

Be honest anyway.





What you spend years building,

someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.





If you find serenity and happiness,

they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.





The good you do today,

people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.





Give the world the best you have,

and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.





You see, in the final analysis,

it is between you and God;

It was never between you and them anyway.



(Mother Teresa)

A letter to you

Dear you,

You came over on October when i started to think i'm sober. I thought we both were so over but i guess i was in a hangover. You told me you're moving on but it's an obvious sign that you still carry on. You're so into her, your world is all about her. I wish i could. I wanna help you out, tell you what it's all about. What i feel, what i need, how's it gonna be. But, you don't seem to understand or maybe you just try to pretend.
I know you love her. Love her like a diamond. Even she doesn't love you, you still foolishly in love with her. Everyone loved her. She is the perfect cuican diamond
She distinguished her beautiful. I am a humble walk with the wind and sand.
I am humble wandering. She pure her flawless. I have ways of the world I complex. She is a priceless diamond and i am worthless sand. She is the diamond I am sand.

Darling, they empathize. Looking through your bloodshot eyes. And i know you, you're so frustrated. Above we all become what we once hated. Be slight nobody can be that wise. So, what do you expect from me? To hold your head above the sea. And there are you even though you're bigger. Don't you know you've crossed my tiny figure? Anyway we're still so young and this isn't yet the day.You might be twenty five but in my mind i see you as one and five. You've got a degree in chinese philosophy. So you think you're cleverer than me. But i'm not just some drama queen. Coz it's where you're at not where you've been.

A Memory Lane

This is how the story went..
I met someone by accident. It blew me away. It was in the darkest of my days when you took my sorrow and you took my pain and buried them away. I wish i could lay down beside you when the day is done and wake up to your face against the morning sun. But like everything i've ever known, you disappear one day. So I spend my whole life hiding my heart away.
Drop me off at the parking lot. Put a kiss on top of my head. You watched me wave while i was in a deep grieve. No tears flowing, i hold my pride high. Then you went on home to your skyscrapers that you call home. I cried myself louder in the silence of sheer.
I woke up feeling heavy hearted. I'm going back to where i started. The morning rain and its rhythm. Although I wish that you were here. That same old road that brought me here. Everything will never be the same.