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March is going to end and by April i would have to face lots of important thing in my life. There're so much stuff running on my brain and i realized how much fear i got which i cannot possibly handle. Me myself don't even know how am i gonna face this. It seems so simple but in the same time even more complicated. It's not easy dealing with this kind of confusion. I'm having a big dilemma between my dream, what i want the most and what i have to sacrifice behind. I've been thinking so hard lately to figure a way to break this silence and hesitation. I'm asking God in my prayer for the path i'm going to walk down next. It takes more than nerves and guts to speak up what's really in me. God must knows what's my point about, i deeply wish HE would understand and open up a way to make it right. I have my own personal purpose, perhaps i can not mention but i know if it's the best way and right thing to do.
Oh Jes, i really need Your hand to take me get through this because i don't have a strenght to walk and decide things by my own. I don't have that courage, i'm clueless like a blind man trying to reach out the world. I tremendously wanna believe if everything is going to be fine but somehow there's still a voice whispering within me saying if this is not the exact moment to tell the truth and explain everything. I know i am strong enough but i just don't know how to convince myself. This is my only chance for lifetime, how am i supposed to let go? I must take it or i'll never have the same opportunity for the rest of my life. It may sounds a bit cliche or ridiculuos but this is it. I'm serious and i'll try my best to make it. I need God to go along this way, not just a luck.

Shoes always melt me...

The question is, who doesn't love shoes? Women always heart them, don't you?
I began to collected them since i was 12, a very young age at that time.
Til now, i couldn't possibly resist those sweet temptation. Wonder who was the genius behind those shoes. It may sounds crazy or i'm just enjoying my daydreaming, but i dream for Louboutin, Jimmy Choo and Manolo Blahnik one day. Perhaps Roberto Cavalli or Sergio Rossi wouldn't mind.
It's like gazing them have already amazed me somehow. Well, i think shoes have their own enchantment and magnetism because when i looked at them, they were like hynotized and paralyzed me in instant. Shoes always drive me crazy persistently and i'm totally insane to keep them on my mind and wishing if i could keep them in my closet. I hate the fact that i'm really keen on shoes so that one is never enough. You know that kind of feelings? You can't just keep buying things constantly without considering any other things behind. How bad is that? You're so into fashion meanwhile you realize if you can't always have what you want in life? How to deal with? At this moment, i can't explain either. The only thing i know is giving my best effort in my study then reach out the dream job, earning lot of cash and enjoying what i deserve as a human and as a girl technically. Now, who's with me? :) It's always your choice to dream on and go for your passion.