To A New Love ...

You found me or i found you. I'm not quite sure which one is correct. But i'd rather believe if we were just two strangers who met by coincidence at an unexpectable moment. You started it with a gentle smile in the beginning. To be quite honest, i didn't actually like you. Well, physically, you're not even my type. Not the face, not the height, not the hair. Boy, you're far beyond my prince charming. But somehow, the lightning must have struck me the other day or Cupid and goddess of fortune is on your side. Because my cold heart has turned into a flame.
I was afraid of this feelings so i tried so hard to deny it. I thought it was unreal and over the time, i'll forget about it. I dread to think about what i might do next if i fall for you. I was so scared, i was so terrified. I was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. I was afraid to be vulnerable. And i was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel. But i guess you're not much different from me. We both were hurted but i'm just too scared to admit it. It’s hard to fight the things that we’re afraid of. Sometimes we just need a little help.
The fear, it’s truly hard to lose somebody. I spent a lot of time searching for reasons or answers. But you can’t find what’s not there. It just happened and i've came to understand about it. People walk in and walk out of our life. No matter how good or bad they leave the impressions, they have taught us many things.
You made it so easy while a lot of guys out there were standing on a queue. You've won my heart. I have no idea about what you've done to me. I must have gone deeply insane.
Baby, i wanna tell you that i love your smell. I love the way you sniff like a little puppy. I love the way you grab my hands and placed it on your chest while you're driving. I love your silly jokes and the way you try to ease my mood. I love your intellegence. I love your curiosity. I love the way you kiss my forehead and hug me tight, right before you drop me off. It makes me feel sufficient, like nothing can take me away. At this point, i think i'm in love you.
You make me believe if it's okay to let myself to be happy because we never know how fleeting that happiness might be. You give me this courage, this brand new heart to love, believe and hope again. I don't know how long it's going to last but i do know that i'll keep you as long as you keep me in your heart. Sincerely, yours.

PS : Be careful with my heart. It's more fragile than you think.

Remorse

Forgiveness is never easy. Bitterness is easy, hatred is easy. But forgiveness, that is a tough one. Sometimes people say things they don't mean or do things they can't take back. Sometimes we do things we can't take back. We're all afraid of something. I was afraid, i was dying. But in the face of great despair, i had an epiphany..........What i have done is who i am. But what i have done is not who i will be. Its been nearly 10.000 hours, 18 months .......... Since i realized what i have done is not who i can be. Unburden yourself from the mistakes of the past. And when you do, your heart grows stronger, i should know. Mine was supposed to go out long time ago. But it doesn't mean that what you have done is forgotten and what you have done remembers.

So Long, Goodbye...

You told me to fight for you & i did. You never fought for me.
I thought i knew you, but i guess it's easier to see what we want until we are looking for the truth. I may not always know what i'm doing but i'll try to make things better and when i make a mistake, i'll face it.
I would've given you the world and welcomed you with open arms but you failed the test. And for that, you get nothing. For that, you are nothing.
I thought maybe we meant more to each other. I guess i was wrong.
When i needed you to stand by me, you blew me off, so i don't need you anymore.
I'm sorry but you don't know anything about my pain.
I'm not fragile because i'm a girl. I'm fragile because i'm human.
I'm letting go of the anger. And i'm letting go of you.
I can't wait around forever. Maybe, it's time to move on.
I want to believe in it all again. In music and art, faith and love, and i want to believe that i have made the right choices and that i am on the right path and that there is still time to fix the mistakes i have made. And i guess i want hope.
Let's face it. It's been a long time and we don't really know each other anymore.
You never gave me a real reason, you just walked away.

No Boundaries

There is no such thing as conditional love. Love is either unconditional or it's no love. You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior or circumstances. But love accepts no boundaries. So never say 'I love you because', for love has no cause, love comes from God.

Mystery

That nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be. You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future. God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know.

Do It Anyway

People are often unreasonable,

illogical and self-centered;

Forgive them anyway.





If you are kind,

people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.





If you are successful,

you will win some false friends and true enemies;

Succeed anyway.





If you are honest and frank,

people may cheat you;

Be honest anyway.





What you spend years building,

someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.





If you find serenity and happiness,

they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.





The good you do today,

people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.





Give the world the best you have,

and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.





You see, in the final analysis,

it is between you and God;

It was never between you and them anyway.



(Mother Teresa)

A letter to you

Dear you,

You came over on October when i started to think i'm sober. I thought we both were so over but i guess i was in a hangover. You told me you're moving on but it's an obvious sign that you still carry on. You're so into her, your world is all about her. I wish i could. I wanna help you out, tell you what it's all about. What i feel, what i need, how's it gonna be. But, you don't seem to understand or maybe you just try to pretend.
I know you love her. Love her like a diamond. Even she doesn't love you, you still foolishly in love with her. Everyone loved her. She is the perfect cuican diamond
She distinguished her beautiful. I am a humble walk with the wind and sand.
I am humble wandering. She pure her flawless. I have ways of the world I complex. She is a priceless diamond and i am worthless sand. She is the diamond I am sand.